Sunday Night Ramblings.

I think this is one of those nights in which I would turn my computer off, turn off the lights in my room, open the curtains, and sit on my bed with an instrument in only the glow of the moon. Or if it wasn't cold outside, go sit on my driveway. Last year I felt disconnected with Wilcox and with school, so more often than not I would be done with rehearsal, homework, and other obligations by dinner time. Come 9 o'clock at night, I was beyond bored, having grown tired of television and the internet. Too early to go to bed, I would pass the time with an instrument on my bed, looking out the window. Or on the driveway.

Certainly, one of the things I miss about home is my driveway. Simple things I never thought I miss. I miss having a couch.

And tonight is one of those nights I wish I could just be alone. I'm not tired, and don't feel like sleeping. I woke up at 2 in the afternoon today, after getting back to my room at 5 in the morning (due to a performance of DRS, strike, and a visit to Denny's), so I guess it's my own fault for not being sleepy. But I don't have class for another 11 hours! So if this were last year, I would know what to do with myself. This weekend both of my roommates were gone, and I had the room to myself, although I didn't get to enjoy it that much. I was gone all of Saturday, and only came back to the room to drop my stuff of at 2 in the morning, and to pass out at 5. By the time I woke up today, both roommates were back. Oh well.

And now I have to get back into the swing of things. Already I'm behind, and I've only been in school a week. Since returning to UCLA on Sunday after Spring Break, my whole life has revolved around Dirty Rotten Scoundrels. Although I pretty much know what's going on in Math and Computing, I'm so extremely lost in Physics. The class is hard, and the professor is hard. I'm going to office hours on Tuesday. And I need to start reading and doing practice problems. Performing this last weekend has made me miss theater and miss being on stage, and for a split second I considered auditioning for other various theater things. But I just don't have the time or energy to juggle theater and school. I could in high school, but this an entirely different ball-game. I'm hoping I can play music more often this quarter, and get some creative outlet that way.

I'm not really sure where this is going or if I had a point, I'm just kind of bored on a Sunday night at 11:06 pm. I guess I'm kind of homesick too. A lot of people at UCLA are from Southern California, and have the luxury of living nearby. They can go home easily, or their family and friends can drive up and visit them. I'm starting to feel disconnected from everything.

In other news, I really want to cut my hair. After this weekend of torturing it (curling it, brushing it out, french braid, curling, repeat) I think it needs to get some healthy treatment.