I miss creativity.
Also, I am ready to come home. I've been in a weird state for the past week or so, but there are so many thoughts and feeling that I'm a bit overwhelmed when it comes to translating them to words. Also I don't feel like pouring out every last drop of my soul onto the internet, where anyone might happen upon it. I'm not looking for pitty or sympathy, and ranting is never fun to read. (On a side note, there is a girl I am Facebook friends with whose status updates are always, without fail, filled with complaints and bitchiness. I don't want to be that girl.)
I don't mean to sound vague, or give some mysterious allusion to my life, but I know (at least some) of the reasons I am feeling the way I am. So let's get back to the first sentence of this blog. I miss creativity. Blogging has been cast aside, music is scarcely played/sang, and I haven't been in a theatrical production in over a year.
Lately, I've been forced to question so many fundamental things about myself.
I know this blog is all over the place, but as mentioned, I can't really formulate a coherent train of thought right now.
Is it bad that I've considered talking to a therapist? I feel like sometimes I just need to get a lot off my chest without worrying about what the other person will think of me.
Emotional party of one? Right this way to your table.
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Aw, Goon. Considering talking to a therapist is not a bad thing. It's a mature, responsible way to try to handle, with help, feelings that are overwhelming or confusing. Some people turn to drugs and whatnot to escape feelings. Wanting to confront and sort them instead is good! I've considered talking to a counselor/therapist before, but think that I'm too untrusting and resentful of sharing with strangers for that to be productive. Instead, what works for me is a combination of self-reflection and analysis aided by journal-keeping, and venting to a trusted and levelheaded friend who knows the characters and circumstances of my life, but who is not an everyday presence in it. Examining yourself can get you so far, but input from a trusted "outsider" can do wonders.
ReplyDeleteMwah!
Also, is the Facebook complainer Ali Lee, or are there more of her? :-P
The Facebook complainer is a girl who is into a girl who is into sk8er bois.
ReplyDeleteAnd I think I should start journaling on a consistent basis. I have the journal you gave me as a going away present here, so I think I might utilize that once more.